Ughhh. I am still SO sick. Whatever my friend gave me is nothing but GNARLY.
I didn’t work out yesterday OR today and am feeling like such a laze-ball. Usually when I’m sick, i’m able to at least weight train and it actually makes me feel better sometimes, but not this time.
In the past two days I have slept, ate, and stared at the ceiling wondering when this will go away. Oh, and watched The Office of course. 🙂 Thankfully I have seasons 1, 2, 3 and 5 on DVD.(Why no season 4? no idea.haha)
The onset of this flu is more than just a sickness. It was a sign (at least in my opinion.) The past 4 weeks, I have been BUSTING my ass in the gym(which I love doing, so i’m definitely not complaining), but what I am NOT a fan of is the diet I have been on. My philosophy with leaning out for a show is slow and steady. I am not all about competing, I am about being healthy, strong and having the body to follow along with it. Competing, to me, is showing off the healthiness of my body and all of the work I have done. Competing is NOT a starving contest, and at this point that is what I feel like I am doing.
I’m eating egg whites, chicken, ground turkey, protein powder, a SMALL amount of oatmeal each day, and veggies(PORTIONED OUT). I’m sorry, but when I have to restrict myself from asparagus, something is NOT right lol.
That being said, I have decided NOT to compete in Fitness America. I toggled with this decision a few weeks ago, being that I didn’t get back on track with my diet soon enough and I am not okay with where my body is as far as competing. Although I could probably get on stage and look pretty good, I don’t ever want to get on stage looking worse than I did in July.(That was where I was happiest with my body.) In August, I looked pretty good, but not AS good and it was definitely a downer for me. This decision was tough, but my realistic thinking was this:
I’m 21 years old…I have YEARS to compete
There is no shortage of shows to compete in.
It is not worth it to starve myself, it is much better to lean out nice and slowly and not feel deprived. It screws with my metabolism anyays, not cool.
Not worth it to risk losing the muscle I have put on(which i am SO excited to see how I look when I’m leaned out)
Anyways, with that being said, I have gone back to the way I was eating to prepare for my first competition. Eating a well rounded diet, still clean, but with more than 4 different types of foods 🙂
Can’t wait to get rid of this sickness and get back in the GYM. This is the most working out I’ve missed since I STARTED working out in 2007. My body needs this break though, and part of me is convinced that is why I am sick in the first place. My body knows I won’t take a break unless I HAVE to.
Thank you all for always being so supportive! It is great to have an awesome support group.
Plans for competing are probably going to be early February.