I need my head to be screwed back on straight.

It’s funny how in my last post I spoke about buckling down and working on what I need to. I had great intentions yesterday and today. Yesterday I stuck to my goals, whereas today, I did not.

I’m not sure exactly what came over me, but I decided that eating a ton of crap was what I should do.

I’m struggling guys, not going to try and hide that. I don’t know what it is honestly. I DO know, that I need to get my head screwed back on straight. At this point I want to crawl into a hole in the ground and bury myself for a while. Hey, at least then I won’t be eating a bunch of crap right?

Okay, so since burying myself in a hole is not an option, moving forward is my only choice.
My best plan of action is to pretend like this is someone else writing this post, and to give them my best advice. So here goes:

“Dear friend, every day is a new day, you may have made poor choices today, but starting tomorrow you can make good choices and have the chance to turn it all around. Don’t give up, just pick yourself up off the ground and get back into gear.”

Easy peasy right? I am just upset today. Figures the same day I am featured on a very popular website, I am struggling. Ah, just need to stop being a baby and get my head in the right place. That’s what it truly comes down to.

Going to go through the motions of putting the pieces back together. Going to wake up tomorrow like any other day and do my workout, going to eat healthy like my body wants me to, and going to try to get my head out of this funk. THAT will be the hardest part.

I am going to sit down and have a talk with the man upstairs tonight. I need some guidance right now. I just don’t seem to be sticking to my healthy eating goals lately the way I should be. Too many cheat DAYS(not meals, DAYS) and they add up. They are pushing me further from my goal. It SCARES me. Because I have gained weight before(after losing it) and vowed that I would never do that again. This is how it all started though, and I am telling you right now that will NOT happen again. I am going to get back to the healthy lifestyle that I truly love(although lately I am a poor example of it.)

Starting over beginning right now. Okay…deep breaths.


2 thoughts on “Ugh

  1. fittingbackin says:

    Hang in there, girl! And keep taking your own advice – I know you motivate me!! I have no doubt your head will be on straight VERY soon!


  2. Becca says:

    We have all gone through that! Part of me wants to tell you it's just because you have been dieting SO LONG, and you just added another comp to the list. When it's over, you'll indulge a bit, then gain a wee bit back, and be uspet at that, too. LOL. Dont worry, it happens to all of us. That's what blogs are for. Hang in there, just 1.5 more weeks, you're good.

    Oh and I forget to comment on the last post…thanks for shaing about your brother and family history. I am glad you are realizing the addition aspect of your family and are able to control/help curb those in yourself.


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