These past few months I have learned a lot about addiction. Dealing with the issues of my brother has opened my eyes in more ways than I could have expected. Although this is not the firs time I have dealt with addiction(mother), it is the first time I have put all my effort into helping someone with an addiction. With my mother, it was the “norm” as a young child and there wasn’t much I could do about it. Crying and whining that she should stop drinking wasn’t the answer. By the time I got older, I just figured it was too late. You also can’t help someone who won’t admit to a problem.
Addiction is something that has always run through my family. Grandfather, mother, aunt and younger brother. Addiction makes you do things you don’t really want to do. The addiction, however, wants you to do it. The addiction takes over, and it tries to control you.
So where am I going with this? Every addict has triggers. My brother, for example, can’t take any type of pills, because these are a trigger to him. Smoking cigarettes and pot are also triggers for him. He is working on avoiding these things so that the addiction does not try to coax him into taking oxycontin.
I eat healthy every day and I love it. People ask me if I get bored of eating chicken and vegetables and egg whites all the time and I truly do not. I also noticed last week when I was carb depleting, that all of my cravings were completely gone by Thursday of last week. When thinking about wanting something to eat, all that I wanted to eat was oatmeal. Not ice cream or cookies, just some oats or some fruit. Something healthy but something with carbs, obviously.
So why am I going through this stupid binge cycle with this crap food that I don’t even like that much? Because I have been having cheats so frequently(it’s not exactly frequent, but weekends have been tough), my body is starting to crave sugar. Once I get it out of my system, I’m okay, but there are certain foods that I feel that trigger me to want to just EAT my little heart out. When I eat chicken, avocado with salsa and vegetables, I am completely satisfied afterwards and don’t even want anything else to eat. When I eat a tablespoon of almond butter? I want 834290384 more. So, that being said…here is my list of trigger foods that I am aware of. These are all foods that are healthy in moderation, but for now, I am going to steer clear of them in order to get the ball rolling again.
This is me going on 30 days, guilt free healthy living(of course I have a little contest prep left in there, so I will allow 1 cheat meal the night of or the day after the show. Notice I said MEAL, not day.)
-Peanut butter and Almond butter(i will miss you both)
-Fruits(I am fine as long as I don’t eat them too often. If i grab an apple at the store every few days, that works, just not going to keep a ton of fruit in the house.)
– Egg whites/Eggs(I am not going to stop eating this. When I eat this for breakfast I am good to go, but if I eat it in the afternoon for a meal, i crave more food afterwards.)
-Sweet potatoes(i know these aren’t supposed to spike your blood sugar, but i feel like they do for me. haven’t been eating them much lately anyways)
My Key Foods:(these are foods that satiate me and leave me totally satisfied. No cravings.)
-canned salmon or tuna
-egg whites(in the morning for the most part.)
-veggies(red pepper, spinach, broccoli, cauliflower, asparagus and green beans)
So for now, I will stick to these foods. Like I said, fruit is okay with me as long as I don’t have a ton of fruit lying around the house. Because I WILL eat it all 🙂 Not that that is necessarily a bad thing, and I am not saying there is ANYTHING wrong with fruit, but I want to just keep things easy, and eating the above foods for a few weeks will make things easy.
I am going to try to photograph my meals too. Let’s see if I can handle it! What are the easiest ways to upload photos on to blogger? I am terrible at it(hence the lack of pics on this blog!)
Thanks for reading the long-ass-novel post. 🙂 If you read all the way through, you must really love me :):) haha