This is going to sound really obvious. Because it is. But yesterday i ate cereal. I was craving it and i just WANTED it. I had too much of it and was sitting there going”IDIOT YOU COMPETE IN 6 WEEKS.” Then i realized that that kind of attitude just attracts more stupidity so I stopped that prontoooo.
Anyways back to the secret. So today(Sunday) I woke up after a nice 3 HOURS of sleep. (more on that later) and went to a new yoga class at the rock climbing gym. It was 90 minutes in an 85 degree room and I really enjoyed it. I left there and went about my day. Went to Whole Foods like usual on the weekends, and just enjoyed my healthy eats. Moreso than ever actually. I then laid out by the pool with a friend and I was very antsy. There were two reasons: 1) I will tell you in just a minute and 2) I needed a good SWEAT. I just was DYING to pump out a great workout. Sometimes I feel like working out is my “job” and I feel pressure to get to the gym in the morning and get my workout done. Don’t get me wrong, I LOVE it, but I love when it doesn’t feel job-like. When it feels like it is 100% my choice and what I want to do right at that moment. So i headed to the gym at my apartment complex and did 50 minutes on the treadmill. 30 minutes of running with intervals and 20 minutes of walking on various inclines. I was feeling UBER fat today (thanks to the water holding from the cereal) and then I started looking in the big wall mirrors at the gym. I sat down to stretch. The pooch I used to have doesn’t fall over my pants anymore. The creases in my stomach are actually lean creases. My body IS changing. I LOVE how it is looking. And I only want to get it to look even better…and that is when I realized the SECRET…..
Whatever fat is laying on my skin and bones and muscles, needs to be burned off. In order to do that, I need to keep up with my workouts, and eat right to shed the fat. Why are we putting so much emotion into eating and exercising? I realized that if I just put the emotions aside from eating (the “i want this, that looks good, those taste great”) and just focus on the healthy foods(that i TOTALLY love more than anything. eating healthy feels great and tastes great in my opinion) and stop stressing so much, maybe it won’t be so difficult. I stress about food WAY too much, I need to just relax and enjoy this journey. Enjoy watching the fat melt off my body, enjoy the gruesome workouts that are getting me here. I need to get enough rest, keep myself happy, and eat for fuel. That doesn’t mean I am not enjoying my food, because I would choose sweet potatos and egg whites over almost anything, it just means I am not going to be so damn picky and psychotic about it. CALM THE EFF DOWN. That is my new motto.
Anyways since this is turning into a novel, I will stop with my little secret that really isn’t a secret at all and move onto why I only slept for 3 hours last night. I went to a barbecue yesterday and met someone and i am wayyyy head over heels 🙂 I haven’t been this intrigued in a while. I am very picky most of the time so im pretty stoked about this. We ended up hanging by the pool all day and then all of us went out last night and didn’t get home until about 3:30. I will give you the whole scoop on this new boy tomorrow. This post is just ridick. And im TIRED.