Today has been really good so far. I realized that I am slipping back into my unhappiness that I got into last summer.(Maybe it’s just not my season or something!!) But I am determined to NOT get that way again. Although there are shitty things in my life, there are also GREAT things in my life and I am learning more and more to appreciate and focus on those. I am going to do everything in my power to keep myself happy and not sulk in my sorrows like I did last year. That was just pathetic. SO, here is my plan.

-Going to start seeing my counselor again. It is helpful to talk to her because she is very down to earth and not your typical “How does that make you feel?” counselor. She gives it to you straight and she is not shy to voice her true opinion on things.

-Going out with friends at least once on the weekends. I got to a point last year where I was so unhappy that all I ever wanted to do was stay home. If I feel like that, I am going to force myself out, because that is what got me out of my “slump” if you will. It was realizing how much fun I have when im out with friends.

-Realizing that time is precious. Only focus on one day at a time. Even one moment at a time. If I start to think too far ahead, I get discouraged, and that is somethign I have learned about myself. I know this now and am able to strategize around it.

-Keep eating right. Eating healthy, and being fit make part of me very happy. Sometimes it can get frustrating, but I know that if I sit back and relax and think about it for a moment, I can get back to my motivated place. There will always be ups and downs, but I can make more ups than downs if I focus and keep my head in the game. At the end of the day, all of this is a mental game. Weight loss, muscle building, competing, it is ALL MENTAL. If you can figure out the mental side of it, it’s a piece of cake to do the physical aspect of it.

-Most of all, I need to not be so critical of myself. I worry so much about gaining weight. I know it sounds silly, but it is honestly my biggest fear. I tend to push myself very hard, and if I ever don’t push myself hard, I feel lazy. I need to realize that it is okay to not go 150% ALL the time. Sometimes I can even go 0%. I just need to keep my goals in sight.

Anyways this has been a long post, but I just needed to get my goals out in the open. Back to food and fitness!!

I warmed up on the treadmill for 20 minutes at 6.0 mph. Then I did bi’s and tri’s. Shoulders was the original plan, but they have been feeling a little weird lately and I know that if I push them too hard, injuries could occur, so I am being careful of that. I then hopped back on the treadmill, warmed up for 5 minutes at 6.5mph and then did intervals for 20 minutes, followed by a 5 min. cool down at 6.5mph. I was going to be done, but realized that my favorite exercise class was going on right then. I decided to go and that was a great workout as well. We did some cardio kickboxing and then used the bosu’s.

Food has been great. I am trying to not go crazy without all the massive amounts of fruit I usually eat. I think with time it will get easier. Breakfast was 1/4 cup of oats with 1/2 banana and 1/2 TBSP almond butter mixed in. Plus 1 real egg and 1/2 cup of egg whites on the side. I had the other 1/2 of the banana as i left my house.

Post-workout I had 4 oz. cooked turkey breast, 1 cup egg whites, 240g sweet potato and a bag of asparagus. Very big meal, but delicious and filling. I didn’t even miss the fruit 🙂

I have my counseling appointment at 1pm and then it is off to work, so I am going to go prepare my meals for the afternoon! Sorry for the novel but have a great day!


6 thoughts on “Monday

  1. Shannon C says:

    Keep your head up! It’s important to remember to be nice to yourself. In the end, you are all you’ve got (hmmm…that sounds sad, but I hope you know what I mean). Bottom line, keep rockin’ and love who you are 🙂 Happy Monday!


  2. Melissa Cunningham says:

    agreeing with shannon on this one! and you are so not alone with how you feel sometimes! i am the same way when it comes to fears! and i do find myself going 150%,and then getting injured,and then getting mad,and then getting UNHAPPY…..just a word of caution when competeing-EASE back into your post contest nutrition,slowly-if not you will put on the “post show bloats” a carb face and 10 extra lbs!!! so careful on this,this can be so hard on the mind,especially if youve been used to seeing youself lean for so long and then in like 2 days weight is on fast! i had to take a year off from competing to regain my mental composure-it as very hard to get through and i still find myself slipping back in my old ways/mind set,but now that i have kids,i am trying my hardest and best to push past it and move on-no sense in passing along my body issues to my children! SO kudos to you for recognizing whats going on and DOING something about it!!! keep on keepin on chica!!!


  3. *ANA* says:

    hope you feel better life can be hard to balance but your a great girl with positive goals stay focused and if you ever need to vent just send an email. i enjoy reading your blog. and look foward to seing you on stage


  4. Tina says:

    Silly…I didn’t realize Lizzy was Nerd Girl…I love your blog :)Yes get out there, live…sometimes hit it hard, and sometimes it’s okay not to. Have the apple 🙂 Skip the carrots 🙂 You are a beautiful girl…if you aren’t feeling it every second of everyday…make yourself feel it…don’t waste time feeling anything but beautiful inside and out.


  5. fittingbackin says:

    Great post, girl! Good for you for being positive and focusing on the great things in your life – keep it up – you're such an inspiration!!


  6. Jen, a priorfatgirl says:

    YAY for seeing your counselor – I totally believe most people would benefit more then they realize from seeing someone every once in a while!


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